Sleepless is a reflection on the liminal space between desire and action. Through self-portraits and recreated scenes from my life, this series revisits times when I followed romantic desire to some ambiguous, transgressive, or destructive place. These images hover in emotional synapses — those hazy moments suspended between will and is and was.
I have been in a relationship with my partner for 10 years. During this time I’ve confronted in myself a lack of faith in the concept of monogamy, romantic feelings for other people, and the realization that I’m queer. These desires have often left me feeling trapped in my body – ashamed, secretive, and self-destructive.
Certain images in this series are recreated scenes from my life, photographed in the location where an event occurred. Others are emotional interpretations of past experiences. The diptych format represents the duality of my internal and external worlds and explores how we express – or keep secret – our desires.
I offer this series not to be read as a clear narrative, but as a rhythm. My goal is for each photograph to be ambiguous, to suspend viewers in the grey area between propriety and transgression – a territory where many of us eventually find ourselves.